Abba, You are almighty, unchanging, holy, and perfect. You love me completely–not just the “good” parts, but all of me–my doubts, insecurities, addictions, depression, distraction, all of it. You are brilliance and strength, eternal youth and ancient wisdom. You are capable of absolutely anything at any time. Nothing is too big or too complicated for You. And You are all good, all pure, all love.
I confess that I feel completely useless, worn out, depressed, and hopelessly distracted. Last night I obviously trusted more in my addictions’ power to comfort and numb me than in Your power to redeem the time and make my evening something magical. I confess that I’m caught in a web and don’t know how to get out. A lot of the time I don’t even want to get out.
Thank You that You keep pulling me back to you, even in the midst of my mess. Thank You that You never give up hope. Thank You that I am on an endless journey through eternity and there is plenty of time.
Please cure me of my hurry-sickness. Please direct me toward the highest and best use of my time, and don’t let me get distracted by that which is unessential to Your purpose. Please bring healing and tenderness and connection to my marriage. Cleanse us from our worldliness and complacency, and set us on fire for You. Redeem this season and make it our best Christmas yet. Thank You for our freedom and power. Please help us to use it wisely. Draw us close to You every minute of the day. Don’t let me wander like a sheep. I’m desperate for You, Abba, yet still running to my unfaithful lovers. Rescue me from myself!!! I beg You. Don’t let me waste even one more day.
Thank You for Your grace, and that defeat is never permanent.
In Jesus’ name I pray, amen.