Abba, You did it! Of course You did! You are hilarious and perfect. Completely holy and true. Never ceasing, never resting, never giving up. You fill us up with Your love and energy and wait ever-so-patiently while we get distracted and wander off. You’re always waiting, always ready, always in love with us. Your love is stronger than any mistake or offense we could ever make, because Your perspective is so much higher. You’re above the labyrinth, with a full view of the beginning and the end and full awareness of our weaknesses and histories. You understand me a million times better than I could ever understand myself, and You judge none of it. You see Your own Son’s flawless record and personality when You look at me, and that is pure amazingness. You absolutely rock, and you rock my world.
I confess that I have not done a very good job with the little things, much less with this entire planet that You’ve entrusted to me. I confess that until extremely recently, I didn’t even realize or acknowledge that You’d even given me dominion over much of anything, much less this gorgeous incredible part of the galaxy. And I confess that I know very little about how to take care of it. I spent most of my time trying to figure out how to get more stuff or approval instead of taking care of what I already owned! I also confess that I’ve made a disaster of a lot of the hearts that were in my care, from my children to friends that I once knew. I confess that I’ve been ignoring or shrugging off the breadcrumbs instead of following them into the adventure You prepared for me.
THANK YOU that You continue to bless me anyway! Thank You for being patient and holding out and continuing to send me signals and messages and breadcrumbs. THANK YOU that the Internet is/was working this morning, so I may not have to go to Coffee Bean to send my video for the Art of Money Mastermind group this morning! (Though I’m still open to going, and the connection already dropped off again since I started writing this! ;)) THANK YOU for the changes and growth you’ve worked in me this summer, so that I’m now the kind of person who STARTS mastermind groups, let alone is capable of joining one and showing up for it. THANK YOU for the possibilities that this group makes possible, and for the financial healing and training on its way over this next month and year. SO exciting. Thank You for all the other people who will get to benefit from what I learn during the program and pass on. And THANK YOU for the fantastically delicious vision You gave me last night for how to tie so many of my desires together and take my girlfriends with me on a paid trip to Hawaii to bless our husbands, families, and wider audience with our training for + performance of The Hula Dolls. So ridiculously fun.
Please continue to strengthen the tribe around us, so that we have a place to clearly share our gifts and offer our friendship. Please continue to make me a great friend, like Jonathan was to David. Please help me organize my schedule to make room for all the important things, like training in parenting skills (so that I can help Elsie get through this rough time and back to a place of emotional strength), finishing my creative projects, keeping our household in order, AND finding a way to bring in some INCOME! :) You are amazing and perfect and I’m so thankful for this time we’ve had without income, so that we will appreciate it all the more and be able to minister to other income-less or just plain poor children of Yours. For we are ALL Your beloved children. Please give me Your eyes and heart as we head back to the Manna Room today to receive Your blessing and to offer Your love to the other wounded souls there.
In Jesus’ beautiful name I pray,