Category Archives: community

Finding Fulfillment Among the Homeless

Abba, You are the brilliant Author of Compassion. You created us with a heart that is meant to love and to find its true fulfillment in relationship with each other. What an incredible design! What love! You are incredible. I am in awe of You and how You made us. I adore You and Your incredible ways, Your overwhelming generosity, and Your giant heart that holds space for everyone. Your limitless grace and patience. Your magnificent Universe and all that’s waiting Beyond.

I confess that I have not lived a life of compassion. I have been so caught up in my own little dramas and “adventures” that I have missed out on real life till now. I confess that I still have so so so far to go in learning to let You love through me. There are still so many parts of me striving for “success” and vying for the throne, leading a rebellion against You and Your ways. I am still so undisciplined and spending such a tiny amount of my time in prayer and worship, which is all I really want to do!

Thank You for Your incredible blessings, for my sweet family and my amazing daily community of poor and homeless. I feel so truly taken care of, provided for, and loved. As Gramma says, “You’ve been too kind to me.” Thank You for the heart of compassion that You’re growing in me, and the true FULFILLMENT I’m experiencing as a result of it. Thank You for keeping our family healthy, together, and with a roof over our heads. Thank You for teaching me what true happiness and contentment look like. Thank You for allowing the locusts to take almost everything away, so I could see what mattered, and that all I was left with was all I ever really wanted. Thank You for this crazy adventure and for what’s awaiting us in Heaven.

Today I ask that You would take the parts of my heart that are still stone and melt them into pure love. Take away all the old me–ALL of it–and make me an on-fire, nothing-to-lose, nothing-else-matters Ambassador of Your Kingdom. These beautiful people trust me and love me, and that is a powerful force–may I use it to bring them home to You, Abba. Teach me how to be a minister of Reconciliation and what that looks like, in a non-preachy, not-so-religious, loving, natural way. And help me to keep my mouth shut when necessary! 😉

In Jesus’ powerful name I pray, amen!

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Community Overflow——Why I’m the Richest Woman I Know

Abba, You are so loving and kind. You created us so that You could have someone on whom to shower Your love and blessings, someone to share Yourself with. You pursue us relentlessly, all day long, every day. You are endlessly inventive in the ways that You show Your love and attention. You are beautiful and absurdly generous and refreshingly unconditional. You love everyone that way, not just the ones who obey You and return Your love. You ARE love. Always. You complete us.

I confess that I have spent so many years believing I need to do something in order to make my life more beautiful, not appreciating all the magic around me that I had nothing to do with. Not being content with my amazing life just the way it is. Endlessly striving toward “more” and “better,” making it absolutely impossible for me to ever experience the perfection of what was always right here waiting for me. I confess that I had placed “success” and “career” on the throne of my heart.

THANK YOU SO MUCH that You have rescued me from that reality and reclaimed the throne. Thank you for the perfection of my life, the overwhelming generosity, and the abundance of community. So many of my prayers answered. And that was the one I wanted most. Family. Tribe. Friendship. Opportunities to serve and help. Breaking bread together. Celebrating together. Dreaming together while enjoying the bliss of now together. Thank you thank you thank you for my tribe of girlfriends.

Please take this day and make of it what YOU will. I place myself on Your altar and ask You to take all of me. Use me for Your service. Set my heart on fire to love Your children so fiercely that they cannot believe any longer that You’ve forgotten them. Use me as a channel of Your abundance so that we can make the Manna Room a place of beauty and comfort along with all the great food and amazing people. Please give me wisdom as to how to connect with Elsa and help heal her wounds, and how best to budget the money that’s coming soon from welfare!

In Jesus’ almighty and precious name, amen!

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How to Handle My Husband’s Unholy Humor

Happy November, Abba! The time just keeps rolling along. Soon it will be the Christmas season and we’ll get to celebrate You in such a fun way. For now, we’ll focus on Thanksgiving and enjoy an entire month of giving thanks for how great You are. 😉 You are so magnificent, You call each star by name. You know every square inch of this Universe like the back of Your hand, because You masterminded every last detail of it! You even know exactly what’s in every black hole. To You there are no mysteries, yet You never get bored. You still see the magic in everything, because Your childlikeness and innocence are everlastling. Every sunset is like a brand new experience. You never get tired, never run out of patience, never give up. You love us fiercely every second of every day, no matter how childish or hateful we’re being. You find us absolutely adorable, and You overlook our offenses.

I confess that my offenses are many. I confess that I am quick to be offended by my husband’s sense of humor and to sit in judgment against him, finding fault with the way he teases me. Thinking he “shouldn’t” talk to his wife that way. Completely ignoring the fact that it’s an indicator of great pain inside of him—Hurt people hurt people. I confess that I hardly ever remember to pray for him or build him up in a way that would help him to actually be ABLE to treat me the way I know he genuinely wants to treat me. I confess that I have been disobedient to Your command in 1 Peter 3:1 that I submit to him so that he may be won over without words by the behavior of his wife.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for my adorable and super-creative new girlfriend and our hangout time yesterday. Thank You that she is so open-minded and open-hearted and that I can be so radically honest with her, and yet she’s still someone that I like and respect. That is so completely refreshing, I feel like I have a new lease on life. Thank You for her level of commitment to You and her 777 days of… what shall we call it? Thank You that I get to join her for the last 717 days. Thank You for this season of Thanksgiving!! Thank You for our tribe, our family, the secondary tribe building so quickly at Hope Hollywood, and all the resources that are flowing into our lives right now, from food and clothing to friends and connections and opportunities. Thank You for the Art of Money mastermind group and for what this next year—taking the full course—is going to do in us and for us. Thank You so much that Ian is also on a path of financial education and that our paths are finally veering toward each other. Thank You for the ministry You are birthing through us. Thank You for the sweet sweet hearts at Hope Hollywood and how much they love to serve You and the poor. Thank You for this laptop and that soon we will have consistent internet service AND free cellphone service! We are so so so so so so so so blessed.

Please give me the power to actually follow through on all the projects I mean to do this week, like setting up a Praying Wives Club/mommy mastermind group with two of my mamapreneur friends, and growing the Discipline Junkies group, and offering actual bliss detective/coaching services on my website so I can actually bring in real financial support for my family. Please give me the strength and wisdom to resist temptation today and not overeat sweets and get fuzzy-headed so that I can’t connect with people as I greet them at church. Please instead give me clear-headed presence so that I can offer a safe and loving space for people as they drop their children off for kids church. May I radiate Your love and grace and be Your arms and hands. Speak through me to bless each person I come in contact with today. Please bless our pastoral team and all the volunteers getting ready to serve all across our beautiful city this morning. Let them know that You love them and appreciate their work, and quicken their hearts to be all about You & Your Kingdom and not about anything to do with the world that’s fading away. Unite Your church to celebrate You together, melting away any division or separation. May we see You and be united in love for You and Your lost children.

In Jesus’ powerful name I pray, amen!

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