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If I Truly Had Your Spirit, Wouldn’t I Be Gentle in the Face of Foolishness?

Abba, You are always supremely gentle and kind, even when I have been foolish and deceived and disobedient and hateful. You just keep on offering your peaceable unconditional love and warmth. You cause the sun to shine on the obedient and the disobedient, just because it’s Who You are. You are benevolent and nonjudgmental, You Who have more right and ability to judge than any other. You never hold my wrongs against me. You continue to offer love and healing and support no matter what we do. You are pure love.

I confess that I have been hateful and disobedient. Even worse, I confess that I was a terrible witness for You. I repaid malice for malice, to one Who doesn’t know Jesus. She calls herself a Christian, but she has mostly rejected Your Son and only acknowledges You. Since I’m the one who goes to church every week, I MUST be the one to show what Your love looks like in the face of mistreatment. I confess I cannot do that on my own. I failed miserably. I acted just as foolish. I was just as deceived. Titus 3:23 says to “ALWAYS be gentle toward EVERYONE, for we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating each other.” I confess my disobedience.

THANK YOU that you are faithful and just, that verse 4-7 goes on to say, “But when the kindness and love of God our Savior toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior, that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.” Thank You for this verse and its implications. Thank You for the Manna Room and my auntie.

I ask that You would please make this passage true of my life, that You would wash, regenerate, and renew me by pouring out Your Spirit abundantly in my life. Please show me if there’s anything I need to do or get out of the way in order to make that happen. I’m useless to go on even one more day without Your Spirit, and I can see by the bad fruit of my life that I don’t have Your Spirit, even after all these years of thinking I was following you. PLEASE please please pour Your Spirit on me now, so that I will be justified by Your grace and become an effective ambassador–an heir according to the hope of Eternal Life NOW!!!

In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!

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