Category Archives: prayer

A.D.D. + Spiritual Victory

Abba,

You alone can satisfy. You are all I want. You fill the entire Universe. You are the Source of all beauty and love, the creator of emotions and adventure, the original Alpha species. And You love me. Completely. You see magic when You look at me, the way I can only see magic in my baby. Pure love, no conditions. Endless patience. Eternal tenderness.

I confess that I have allowed the 10,000 things to creep in again and overwhelm me. I turned “prayer” into one more item on my massive to-do list, and it became one of a hundred things that didn’t get done. Not really. Sure, there were a few off-the-cuff prayers, and it’s not like You mind or are upset or disappointed, but I’m suffering terribly from the lack of connection with You. YOU ARE ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!

Thank You for once again reminding me of this fact. Thank You that You’re always ready + waiting, never holding a grudge, never taking it personally. Thank You that I have the best family ever. Thank You for how much my husband has been willing to step up and help out with the kids as my work life gets busier and busier. Thank You for the Blissful Birthing documentary and the doors flying open to make that happen. Thank You for whispering those sweet words in my soul as I nursed the baby back to sleep just now: “There’s nowhere else I need to be, nothing else I need to be doing.” What bliss! Thank You for revealing to me the fact that ADD is a sign that a person has a high calling on their life and the Enemy has therefore placed a target on their head–Attack! Distract! Dominate!

Please help me to spread that message AND to win the victory. Please show me how to claim the spiritual dominion You sacrificed so much to make possible and how to not let the Enemy win by keeping me (or anyone else) focused on things that don’t matter. Please give me wisdom regarding my to-do list. Show me where to trim the fat and cut out distractions. Please fill me with Your Holy Spirit, so that nothing else will matter at all, and make me Your avatar, Your ambassador, Your Presence here on this planet. Yes Yes Yes. THAT is what I want. Thank You!

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!

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The Life I’ve Always Wanted + Remembering to Sing

Abba, You are the inventor of Thanksgiving. You create a million new reasons for us to give thanks every day. And You dwell in gratitude always. You deserve more gratitude than we could ever muster, and You’re infinitely patient and loving with us even when we’re ungrateful and whiny.

I confess that I have not once remembered to pray and give thanks before, during, or after a meal at the Manna Room. Horrors! I’ve been caught up in the food and what people were thinking of us and getting settled and talking to people, and totally left You out of the equation!

Thank You for your grace and mercy and gentleness. Thank You for not being angry or disgusted with me about it. And THANK YOU for second chances (and 222nd chances!). Thank You for bringing this to my attention, and thank You for the good it will bring about when we DO start singing our prayer song at every meal. Thank You for the absolutely bottomless list of blessings I could be thanking You for right now. Thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank YOU! Thank You for my life exactly as it is right now, and thank You answering my prayer and doing “whatever it takes” to get me to this place. It is exactly where I’ve always wanted to be. 🙂

Please help me remember to sing the prayer with the kids this morning and every meal. Please help me remember to pray ALWAYS. Please keep us in a spirit of Thanksgiving today, and orchestrate an incredible first meeting of the Tribe of Girlfriends Inner Circle this weekend IF that would glorify and please You. Please make me such a woman of prayer that it’s what I’m most known for. 🙂

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!

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The Prayer + Potluck Party is Born (We’re “Hooked Up”)

Abba,

You are eternal sunshine. You are magic. You are real. You are logical. You are sometimes very illogical. You created everything. You ARE love. You are so much bigger than the God of religion, even Christianity. You are un-understandable. You are outrageous. You are beyond “Beyond.” You are the great Mystery. To You there ARE no mysteries. You. Are. And You are mine. You are the lover of my soul, the breath of my life, the beat of my heart.

I confess that I still forget You for most of the day, and instead spend that time and energy managing my image, trying to be liked, and trying to provide for myself and my kids. Playing You. And I confess that I’m still so ungrateful for so many things, and I take Life itself for granted most days. I confess that I still let fear win the battle, and I don’t stand up to it and own my power as a prayer warrior. I confess that I lose more battles than I win, because I’m not even in the game. I’m distracted and caught up in the drama of the seen.

Thank You for Lucian’s birthday party tonight, and that we’re invited to Carrie’s house after all this time. We must be vibrating at a much higher frequency to be attracting her again. Thank You for my fantastic conversation with Charles last night as he waited for his bus. Thank You for love and friendship and conversation. Thank You thank You thank You for the Manna Room. Thank You for the angel Eddie who invited me there, but whom I’ve never seen again. Thank You that my children are happy and healthy and WITH ME, and that my marriage is protected by Your grace. Thank You that I have absolutely everything I need.

Please guide my priorities today. Give me wisdom as to what to do first, how to fit in creative projects like writing the “For Richer or Poorer” monologue/blog. Please create a community of prayer warriors around us, and fill me with Your Holy Spirit so that I can boldly lead that movement if no one else is. Please grant us favor and doors wide open as we move in that direction.

Oh, I just had an Idea: throw a Prayer + Potluck Party at Linda Evans’ home.

Family-friendly. Anyone is welcome. We’ll break off in groups and cover the entire party (including food issues), our families, churches, city, nation, worldwide body of Christ, planet, and universe in prayer. We’ll open with worship. Maybe a hymn-sing. We’ll put out a blessing jar to collect any funds people feel led to share in order to bless Steve + Linda for sharing their home.

We can also do this same party at OUR home, and set up the garage as the prayer room. No blessing jar needed, because we’re “hooked up.” 😉

The more I think about it, I really really REALLY want to make it to at least the prayer part of Sam & Amy’s family small group on Sunday. I don’t want to miss an opportunity to pray with other believers! However, there’s the issue of childcare. $15 is just too much for our family right now, and I don’t even know if baby Freedom would be happy. Maybe just I could go, and leave the kids at home with Ian? No, that would be too weird. Hmmmm. Okay, maybe I’ll sit this one out for now, and work out my own prayer party as discussed above, but one that is FREE and operates on a rotating childcare/prayer system. THANK YOU, Abba!!!! Love love love it.

Oh em gee. One last thing before I go–I just realized we need to set out a PRAYER JAR–of COURSE!!!–that’s what people write their prayer requests on during the party. Then we distribute those during prayer time, so each gets covered during the party AND during the week afterward. It can even include contact info IF you desire a follow-up. Oh my sweet Jesus, thank You so much for this precious and beautiful idea. I can’t wait to experience this in person!!! 🙂

I love You love You love You! In Jesus’ all-powerful name I pray, amen!

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