Category Archives: spiritual warfare

A.D.D. + Spiritual Victory

Abba,

You alone can satisfy. You are all I want. You fill the entire Universe. You are the Source of all beauty and love, the creator of emotions and adventure, the original Alpha species. And You love me. Completely. You see magic when You look at me, the way I can only see magic in my baby. Pure love, no conditions. Endless patience. Eternal tenderness.

I confess that I have allowed the 10,000 things to creep in again and overwhelm me. I turned “prayer” into one more item on my massive to-do list, and it became one of a hundred things that didn’t get done. Not really. Sure, there were a few off-the-cuff prayers, and it’s not like You mind or are upset or disappointed, but I’m suffering terribly from the lack of connection with You. YOU ARE ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!

Thank You for once again reminding me of this fact. Thank You that You’re always ready + waiting, never holding a grudge, never taking it personally. Thank You that I have the best family ever. Thank You for how much my husband has been willing to step up and help out with the kids as my work life gets busier and busier. Thank You for the Blissful Birthing documentary and the doors flying open to make that happen. Thank You for whispering those sweet words in my soul as I nursed the baby back to sleep just now: “There’s nowhere else I need to be, nothing else I need to be doing.” What bliss! Thank You for revealing to me the fact that ADD is a sign that a person has a high calling on their life and the Enemy has therefore placed a target on their head–Attack! Distract! Dominate!

Please help me to spread that message AND to win the victory. Please show me how to claim the spiritual dominion You sacrificed so much to make possible and how to not let the Enemy win by keeping me (or anyone else) focused on things that don’t matter. Please give me wisdom regarding my to-do list. Show me where to trim the fat and cut out distractions. Please fill me with Your Holy Spirit, so that nothing else will matter at all, and make me Your avatar, Your ambassador, Your Presence here on this planet. Yes Yes Yes. THAT is what I want. Thank You!

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!

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The Prayer + Potluck Party is Born (We’re “Hooked Up”)

Abba,

You are eternal sunshine. You are magic. You are real. You are logical. You are sometimes very illogical. You created everything. You ARE love. You are so much bigger than the God of religion, even Christianity. You are un-understandable. You are outrageous. You are beyond “Beyond.” You are the great Mystery. To You there ARE no mysteries. You. Are. And You are mine. You are the lover of my soul, the breath of my life, the beat of my heart.

I confess that I still forget You for most of the day, and instead spend that time and energy managing my image, trying to be liked, and trying to provide for myself and my kids. Playing You. And I confess that I’m still so ungrateful for so many things, and I take Life itself for granted most days. I confess that I still let fear win the battle, and I don’t stand up to it and own my power as a prayer warrior. I confess that I lose more battles than I win, because I’m not even in the game. I’m distracted and caught up in the drama of the seen.

Thank You for Lucian’s birthday party tonight, and that we’re invited to Carrie’s house after all this time. We must be vibrating at a much higher frequency to be attracting her again. Thank You for my fantastic conversation with Charles last night as he waited for his bus. Thank You for love and friendship and conversation. Thank You thank You thank You for the Manna Room. Thank You for the angel Eddie who invited me there, but whom I’ve never seen again. Thank You that my children are happy and healthy and WITH ME, and that my marriage is protected by Your grace. Thank You that I have absolutely everything I need.

Please guide my priorities today. Give me wisdom as to what to do first, how to fit in creative projects like writing the “For Richer or Poorer” monologue/blog. Please create a community of prayer warriors around us, and fill me with Your Holy Spirit so that I can boldly lead that movement if no one else is. Please grant us favor and doors wide open as we move in that direction.

Oh, I just had an Idea: throw a Prayer + Potluck Party at Linda Evans’ home.

Family-friendly. Anyone is welcome. We’ll break off in groups and cover the entire party (including food issues), our families, churches, city, nation, worldwide body of Christ, planet, and universe in prayer. We’ll open with worship. Maybe a hymn-sing. We’ll put out a blessing jar to collect any funds people feel led to share in order to bless Steve + Linda for sharing their home.

We can also do this same party at OUR home, and set up the garage as the prayer room. No blessing jar needed, because we’re “hooked up.” 😉

The more I think about it, I really really REALLY want to make it to at least the prayer part of Sam & Amy’s family small group on Sunday. I don’t want to miss an opportunity to pray with other believers! However, there’s the issue of childcare. $15 is just too much for our family right now, and I don’t even know if baby Freedom would be happy. Maybe just I could go, and leave the kids at home with Ian? No, that would be too weird. Hmmmm. Okay, maybe I’ll sit this one out for now, and work out my own prayer party as discussed above, but one that is FREE and operates on a rotating childcare/prayer system. THANK YOU, Abba!!!! Love love love it.

Oh em gee. One last thing before I go–I just realized we need to set out a PRAYER JAR–of COURSE!!!–that’s what people write their prayer requests on during the party. Then we distribute those during prayer time, so each gets covered during the party AND during the week afterward. It can even include contact info IF you desire a follow-up. Oh my sweet Jesus, thank You so much for this precious and beautiful idea. I can’t wait to experience this in person!!! 🙂

I love You love You love You! In Jesus’ all-powerful name I pray, amen!

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Living Lightly Here on Earth

Good Morning, Abba. Happy Friday! You created the whole idea of cycles and weeks and time. You perfectly orchestrated everything to show us how nature works, so we can recognize the cycles and have something by which to structure our understanding of time and experience some measure of predictability. You are the master of all chaos, the creator of black holes, the One Who knows the answers to all our mysteries. You are the Ancient One. You existed before any of this was ever here, and You’ll be here long after it’s all gone. You are forever. Unchanging. Perfect. Complete.

I confess that I am a tiny little human with grand ideas of my own importance. I confess that I know almost nothing about the universe and yet I take myself and my insignificant little life very seriously. I have set myself upon the throne of my life, and I expect everyone else to pay me the respect that’s really only due to You. I think much of my circumstances and spend so much time and energy trying to manipulate them. I confess that I am a completely derelict, irresponsible and undisciplined ambassador of Your Kingdom, failing miserably at my job.

Thank You for Your forgiveness. Thank You that You are working in me both to will and to do. Thank You that You’ve promised to make good on my life, to turn it into something beautiful. Thank You for second chances unnumbered. Thank You for the freedom we experience in this country. Thank You for my beautiful children and their health. Thank You for Ben’s new school. Thank You for our new life and routine. Thank You that You will guide me to understand exactly which projects are worthy of my time and attention and will bring me a spiritual director.

Please bring that spiritual director this week. Please bring me an older, wiser person who will be honest and speak into my life and hold me accountable and expect much of me spiritually. Please help me to see the absolute best in people and not judge or criticize the ones you send into my life. Please help me to take my current perspective into my day, and to continue to take my projects very lightly, and to put all the weight on Your goals of glory. Please bless this evening’s party and give us the strength to cover it spiritually so that the Opposition is defeated. Please shape us into a cohesive, spiritually disciplined band of believers who make a difference in the history of mankind.

In Jesus’ beautiful name I pray, amen!

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