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Minimal Effective Dose Reached–HALLELUJAH!!!

glimpse of heaven

Abba,

YOU. ARE. (I pause in Your Presence…) O Holy, Radiant, Exalted One, Most High, Creator of all Universes ever in existence, Being without end or beginning, Your Glory is incomparable and unexplainable. Your ways are so infinitely beyond our ways. Your timing is impeccable perfection. Your guidance and Presence are more magnificent than an entire planet made of sparkling diamonds. Your Heavenly Sanctuary is the only place worth being.

I confess that I have lived 34 (of my 38) years “knowing” You, yet barely knowing You at all. Restless but sedate and content with milk. Occasionally hungry for more, but not ravenous enough to do whatever it takes to push past all resistance and break through the fog of complacency into the very Presence. The veil may have been torn on “Good Friday,” making it possible for common man (and not just the High Priest) to enter the Holy of Holies, but it wasn’t destroyed. We still have to choose to pass through the veil to stand before You. And I confess that THAT is all I want now.

THANK YOU!!!!! Oh sweet Jesus, Heavenly Father, and Holy Spirit, THANK YOU. Thank You for Your perfect timing, for my many messages in the night, for getting me up at 5 a.m. once again, for my amazing girlfriends #LOL, for the power of prayer, for allowing me to Hear from You, that You’ve always wanted me to hear from You, for the clarity regarding my next steps with social entrepreneurship and business, for that not being the pinnacle but only a sidebar, for my perfectly supportive husband and absolutely sublime children, for this one life, for the Passion translation, for Psalms, for giving me even the teensiest taste of Your Glory. Thank You that while I may not have experienced a “breakthrough” during my one-hour prayer-and-seeking-Your-voice session yesterday, my breakthrough did come in the night as I lay in bed. And thank You for Lorrie’s guidance and encouragement about how to hear Your voice, Kori’s prayers, and Ian’s willingness to watch the kids while it all went down.

Please, I beg You, be the Lord of my Life today. Surround me with Your wrap-around presence and fill me completely with Your Holy Spirit. Please baptize me in the all-consuming flame of Your Love. Fan this fire, keep it burning bright, remind me of You a zillion times an hour, and keep me on a very short leash. May the words of my mouth and every thought in my mind be a pleasant fragrance to You, my Love and my Life.

In Jesus’ precious name I pray, Amen and so it is! 🙂

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Notice the Stream

... of countless ways in which
Our Creator constantly romances us.

own yourself sensually

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A Multi-Passionate Motherhood Moment

Where-do-you-want-to-go (rainbow arrows)

Abba,

I lift Your name above all else this morning. You are the bright eternal sun, blazing gloriously even when we can’t see You because clouds of worry block Your light or the entire planet of our being has turned away from You. Yet You created us to continuously turn back toward You in cycles, even when our heart is tilted and bent towards turning and turning and turning forever. You are so much greater than any human cycle, even the ones lasting thousands and thousands of years. You are constant, ancient, and always. Your love is stronger than any other force in existence, and nothing can stop it. Despite the intensity and enormity of Your power and Your scope, You’re still fervently interested in the details of my life, and the state of my heart.

I confess that I’m still entertaining confusion about what to do with my life. Every time I wake up from wallowing in failure and futility and determine to scrape myself together and diligently work hard toward success, the contradictory religious voices rear up, accusing me of selfish ambition, lecturing me about focusing only on You and not worrying about “worldly success.” I’m still not clear on it all, and I don’t want to move forward on anything that would pull me away from you or my family duties or be a distraction. Yet I know You can’t have meant for me to stay in poverty on purpose.

Thank You that You will–in Your perfect timing–blast through all this nonsense for me. Thank You for sending Pastor Ed, a willing mentor who gives out his cell phone number and returns messages as quickly as he can. Thank You for Hope Hollywood  and that whole family there. Thank You that You will show us how to fit ourselves in there and serve as much as possible. Thank You that Ian is already feeling drawn towards serving and cooking for the soup kitchen there. Thank You for my outrageously amazing children and that our marriage has bounced back through steady and serious prayer.

Abba, please send me a clear message about what the highest & best for me is at this point. There will be plenty of time for me to pursue all kinds of other things once the kids are grown, so I don’t want to waste these precious years on getting things out of order, but I also don’t want to put off any success that we could be enjoying together now. I would so love to be able to travel with the kids while they’re still young, and to just have a more open and flowing attitude and way of being. Help me to trust You more and to know that I can’t get in your way, or (if I can get in your way and stop you from blessing us) please show me how to get out of Your way!! 🙂 I love You, Abba. Thank You for everything, especially for prayer.

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!

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