Abba, You are the breath I breathe. You are the Source of Life. You are the Alpha species, the first, the beginning, the original. You are beauty, love, comedy, adventure, and bliss. You love perfectly and completely. You are all about relationship and heart. You are bigger than our galaxy, more inclusive than the entire Universe, and yet You’re here with me, right now. Here. In my heart. Around me. In my brain. Hearing every thought. Overlooking every offense. Loving and waiting and encouraging and helping me. You are also the ultimate victor. You’ve already won the war. You offer Your strength and Your sovereignty and invite me to rest in You and receive Your comfort, Your invigoration, Your heart in me.
I confess that I have a heart of stone. I harbor resentments and irritations and petty grudges. I allow myself to be annoyed instead of taking that feeling immediately to You, dropping it at Your feet, and allowing You to forgive me, take my feelings of ickiness, and replace them with Your unconditional Love. Your heavenly, Eternal perspective that will see only the innocence and the cry for love in others’ seemingly needy or mean behaviors and words. I confess that I want to hurt hurt people, which obviously means I have the devil in me. I’m playing right into his hands.
Thank You that You’ve brought this to my attention and You can soften my heart. Thank You that You will remind me, anytime I’m being annoyed or hurt, with a little whisper, “Hurt people hurt people. Choose love. See the innocence. Love the child within the beast costume.” Thank You that You’ve surrounded me with so many opportunities to choose love over irritation! 😉 Thank You for my husband and his grandmother. Thank You that You are bigger than all my pettiness. Thank You that You are making me a gentle, kind, overflowing-with-love-and-adoration-no-matter-what woman. Thank You that I am Your daughter. Thank You that Ben has an incredible new school to go to today, and thank You that I can rest in You and roll my anxiety (about my emotions) onto You and receive Your supernatural peace.
Please keep me on a short leash today, Abba. Don’t let me get sucked into my own thoughts or the ways of the world. Please allow me to use this massive transition time as an anchor pulling me into You and not getting tossed about by the 10,000 things usually vying for my attention. Give me blinders. Keep me all about You and Your children. Remind me what being an Ambassador of Reconciliation is really all about. Help me to discard the projects that would waste even one minute of time. Please!!! Make it so so clear to me. Bring me back to my knees over and over in gratitude. Bring a picture of me on my knees to my mind whenever I begin to stray, so I can bring myself back to You over and over today. I love You. I want You to be my Life. My everything. Please keep me in Your hand and don’t let me wander off. I beg You!!! Make me the woman You created me to be. Use me to bring hearts back to You. To bind up the brokenhearted. To set the captives free.
In Jesus’ name, Amen!