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Golden Day Gratitudes

Thank You, Abba, for this golden day.

Thank You that I was up at 5 once again, even though I went to bed at midnight.

Thank You that I will get to make up for lost sleep with a beautiful NAP this afternoon. 😉

Thank You for Winston Churchill setting the example of great leadership through intentional napping.

Thank You for the excellent hangout time with true friends yesterday at the park, for our kids getting to truly play in nature while we got to have real conversation about dreams and passions and plans and books.

Thank You for waking me up from my deep rest slumber and giving me Chinese New Year’s as a way to still kickstart my year with a bang even though I’m getting a late start.

Thank You for the increasing clarity about my purpose and the new vision for Panda Journal (or something like it), where I can promote friends’ writings and pull it all together in one happy place.

Thank You for my fantastic Tribe of Girlfriends and the upcoming collage card party, where we can share inspiration, dream together, laugh, cry, celebrate, plan, wonder, create and collaborate.

Thank You so much for Ian taking Freedom with him on the drive to drop Ben off at school, so I could get a little more focused work time in. Thank You for Ben’s adorable school and that he has the opportunity to be a light there in those lives. Thank You for his wonderful teacher and all of his friends. Thank You for the “cool tools” they teach at that school, and for non-violent communication and mindfulness.

Thank You for prayer and gratitude and the power of love and the feeling of overwhelming Joy + Life bubbling in my heart right now. I could write gratitudes all day long, there are just so many things to thank You for.

And thank You for the breakthrough last night (even if it did require a bit of saké) to sweetness with Gramma last night, being able to say “thank you” to her and for her being able to actually hear and receive it.

Thank You for Ian’s enthusiasm and excitement, and for this season of hope.

Thank You for the fantastic trio so far of intentions & themes for 2015, beginning with PRAYER, dance in the middle, and finishing with permission to rock my marriage with training in tantra. This can only end in ridiculously fun adventure. You are worthy of every ounce of praise. I worship You. I adore You. Thank You.

In the name of Emmanuel I pray, amen!

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My True Calling = Prayer + Worship Warrior

Abba,

You are beyond all comprehension. You are always busy behind the scenes orchestrating beauty and making dreams come true. You love to give us great gifts and to fulfill our hearts’ desires. You are whole and complete, not lacking anything, and steadily working to make us like You in that respect. You are brighter than the sun, stronger than a hurricane, and madly in love with each of us. You are eternal. Forever. Infinite. Divine.

I confess that yesterday I still didn’t take the time out of my oh-so-importantly busy day to pray and to deal with the spiritual realities going on around me as often as I wish I had. I acted and thought on a physical and mental level, letting my flesh and my mind run the show, neglecting the Truth by focusing on the facts and human explanations. I confess that I wasted much of my life till now by worrying about careers, projects, and income, and not living up to my true calling as a prayer warrior and worshiper.

Thank You that You don’t get tired of hearing this and roll your eyes the way I want to right now. Thank You that You gently and persistently pursue me and call me back to my True Path. Thank You for Heaven and that I was raised with complete faith that it’s a real place that I will see one day. Thank You for the questioning and doubting I went through in my 20’s that enabled me to break out of the religiosity and be an open-minded believer. Thank You for the incredible women I get to meet with today and for the dramatic transformation You worked in me in order to take me from being afraid to even attend networking events to being the one who naturally creates them and invites others. Thank You so much for all You’ve done in me. Thank You for Ashleigh Hitchcock reminding me to be my own best friend, and Angela having such an obvious spiritual attack in public that it pulled me out of my complacency and fog of spiritual forgetfulness and into action and prayer. Thank You for teaching me (just now!) that WORSHIP is prayer. Thank You for the enormous wealth of worship songs in my memory bank.

Abba, I ask that You would please keep me in a worshipful state today. Bring songs to my mind and do whatever it takes to keep me worshiping You in gratitude. If it would please You, please bring me a voice coach or whatever transformation You would prefer, to make my voice beautiful, so that I can lead others in worship without self-consciousness. Please do whatever You need to do in me in order to make me fully available for You to shine through and speak through today. Please hold Angela close today, and open her mouth to sing your praises all day long. May she be completely released and freed from the grip of those demons and surrounded by an entire battalion of angels, and may she recognize her high calling and live it out. Bless the Manna Room and make it a place of prayer, praise, power, and Presence even more than a place for great free food and interesting characters. May our Praying Wives Circle be as truly powerful as I imagine it can be, and may it only be the beginning of something epically beautiful that spreads as fast as wildfire. Please give me wisdom in all my actions and interactions today. Take all of my flesh and all my old habits and ideas, and fill me instead with Your Holy Spirit. I want to be all Yours.

Thank You thank You thank You for all You’ve done!!! My life is a miracle.

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen and hallelujah! 🙂

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My Desire: To Be Trained + Ordained, Anointed + Appointed

Abba,

You are eternal, perfect, holy, and whole. You are completely integrated and always in integrity with yourself. You aren’t lacking anything. You are fullness of love, definiteness of purpose, confidence, grace. You’re here with me, embracing me, filling me with Your power, Your love, Your wisdom.

I confess that I’m too full of my little self to have any room for You to pour Yourself into me, and I don’t know how to change that on my own. I want to pour all of me—all my desires, earthly hopes and dreams, worries, wishes, concerns, projects, all of it—out, leaving an empty vessel to offer You to use for Your purposes.

Thank You that Your Holy Spirit can teach me how to do that, to offer myself at Your feet. Thank You that I’m aching for You right now, and that my highest desire is to be with You, to be Your trained & ordained, anointed & appointed Minister of Reconciliation. Thank You that You wouldn’t give me this desire to be Your Ambassador unless You intend to make good on it and redeem my life.

Today I pray that You would open doors in that direction, that I could become trained & ordained, anointed & appointed. Please give me wisdom and certainty about what that means and how to serve You completely in my life right now, while working towards becoming trained & ordained so that I have the confidence and inspiration to be all about You all the time. Please send me cohorts and mentors that can help me guard myself from distractions, because I know I’m too weak and worldly on my own. Teach me to feed my spirit and starve my flesh! Make me Your Ambassador. I beg You!!

In Jesus’ merciful name I pray, amen.

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