Abba, You are the Source of all emotion, all energy, all movement, all life. You are the truth behind this whole story, the beginning of it all and the end we’re heading towards. You flood our lives with unbelievable blessings every day, whether or not we take the time to stop and notice or ever express thanks for them. You are the breath we breathe, the pulse in our veins, the glue holding every cell of our bodies together. And You love us fiercely, outrageously, completely. Just the way we are. You hold no grudges, forgive all offenses, and offer only love in return.
I confess that I have been living in a dream, taking this life too seriously, distracted by the 10,000 things again. I have let so many opportunities go wasted, so many of your children pass me by unnoticed. I haven’t spread your love as I could have, haven’t spent the time in prayer and meditation to keep myself focused on all that truly matters.
Thank You for reminding me of this truth. Thank You for calling to me. Thank You for giving me the vision of Heidi Baker, with Los Angeles as my Mozambique, during worship at Mosaic on New Year’s Eve. That is way too big of a purpose for me and yet if that’s what You want for me, I know You will bring it to pass. Thank You that You’ve promised to work in me both to will and to do Your calling and Your good pleasure. Thank You for this new year and the air of hope and freshness and love. Thank you for community and friendship and praying friends. Thank you for my growing, strengthening tribe of girlfriends.
Please cause me to want You more, to listen to You more, to worship You more. Please arrange my schedule to make time for You above all else. Please clarify my goals and my projects to weed out the distractions and the time-wasters to make me available for YOUR work and for just basking in Your Presence. Thank You for all You’ve done already, and I commit this day, this week, this month, this year, this life, to You. Do with it as You will. I am Your little handmaid acceptance-with-joy.
You are beyond all comprehension. You are always busy behind the scenes orchestrating beauty and making dreams come true. You love to give us great gifts and to fulfill our hearts’ desires. You are whole and complete, not lacking anything, and steadily working to make us like You in that respect. You are brighter than the sun, stronger than a hurricane, and madly in love with each of us. You are eternal. Forever. Infinite. Divine.
I confess that yesterday I still didn’t take the time out of my oh-so-importantly busy day to pray and to deal with the spiritual realities going on around me as often as I wish I had. I acted and thought on a physical and mental level, letting my flesh and my mind run the show, neglecting the Truth by focusing on the facts and human explanations. I confess that I wasted much of my life till now by worrying about careers, projects, and income, and not living up to my true calling as a prayer warrior and worshiper.
Thank You that You don’t get tired of hearing this and roll your eyes the way I want to right now. Thank You that You gently and persistently pursue me and call me back to my True Path. Thank You for Heaven and that I was raised with complete faith that it’s a real place that I will see one day. Thank You for the questioning and doubting I went through in my 20’s that enabled me to break out of the religiosity and be an open-minded believer. Thank You for the incredible women I get to meet with today and for the dramatic transformation You worked in me in order to take me from being afraid to even attend networking events to being the one who naturally creates them and invites others. Thank You so much for all You’ve done in me. Thank You for Ashleigh Hitchcock reminding me to be my own best friend, and Angela having such an obvious spiritual attack in public that it pulled me out of my complacency and fog of spiritual forgetfulness and into action and prayer. Thank You for teaching me (just now!) that WORSHIP is prayer. Thank You for the enormous wealth of worship songs in my memory bank.
Abba, I ask that You would please keep me in a worshipful state today. Bring songs to my mind and do whatever it takes to keep me worshiping You in gratitude. If it would please You, please bring me a voice coach or whatever transformation You would prefer, to make my voice beautiful, so that I can lead others in worship without self-consciousness. Please do whatever You need to do in me in order to make me fully available for You to shine through and speak through today. Please hold Angela close today, and open her mouth to sing your praises all day long. May she be completely released and freed from the grip of those demons and surrounded by an entire battalion of angels, and may she recognize her high calling and live it out. Bless the Manna Room and make it a place of prayer, praise, power, and Presence even more than a place for great free food and interesting characters. May our Praying Wives Circle be as truly powerful as I imagine it can be, and may it only be the beginning of something epically beautiful that spreads as fast as wildfire. Please give me wisdom in all my actions and interactions today. Take all of my flesh and all my old habits and ideas, and fill me instead with Your Holy Spirit. I want to be all Yours.
Thank You thank You thank You for all You’ve done!!! My life is a miracle.