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New Year, New Yearnings

Abba, You are the Source of all emotion, all energy, all movement, all life. You are the truth behind this whole story, the beginning of it all and the end we’re heading towards. You flood our lives with unbelievable blessings every day, whether or not we take the time to stop and notice or ever express thanks for them. You are the breath we breathe, the pulse in our veins, the glue holding every cell of our bodies together. And You love us fiercely, outrageously, completely. Just the way we are. You hold no grudges, forgive all offenses, and offer only love in return.

I confess that I have been living in a dream, taking this life too seriously, distracted by the 10,000 things again. I have let so many opportunities go wasted, so many of your children pass me by unnoticed. I haven’t spread your love as I could have, haven’t spent the time in prayer and meditation to keep myself focused on all that truly matters.

Thank You for reminding me of this truth. Thank You for calling to me. Thank You for giving me the vision of Heidi Baker, with Los Angeles as my Mozambique, during worship at Mosaic on New Year’s Eve. That is way too big of a purpose for me and yet if that’s what You want for me, I know You will bring it to pass. Thank You that You’ve promised to work in me both to will and to do Your calling and Your good pleasure.  Thank You for this new year and the air of hope and freshness and love. Thank you for community and friendship and praying friends. Thank you for my growing, strengthening tribe of girlfriends.

Please cause me to want You more, to listen to You more, to worship You more. Please arrange my schedule to make time for You above all else. Please clarify my goals and my projects to weed out the distractions and the time-wasters to make me available for YOUR work and for just basking in Your Presence. Thank You for all You’ve done already, and I commit this day, this week, this month, this year, this life, to You. Do with it as You will. I am Your little handmaid acceptance-with-joy.

In Jesus’ truly precious name I pray, amen.

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A.D.D. + Spiritual Victory

Abba,

You alone can satisfy. You are all I want. You fill the entire Universe. You are the Source of all beauty and love, the creator of emotions and adventure, the original Alpha species. And You love me. Completely. You see magic when You look at me, the way I can only see magic in my baby. Pure love, no conditions. Endless patience. Eternal tenderness.

I confess that I have allowed the 10,000 things to creep in again and overwhelm me. I turned “prayer” into one more item on my massive to-do list, and it became one of a hundred things that didn’t get done. Not really. Sure, there were a few off-the-cuff prayers, and it’s not like You mind or are upset or disappointed, but I’m suffering terribly from the lack of connection with You. YOU ARE ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!

Thank You for once again reminding me of this fact. Thank You that You’re always ready + waiting, never holding a grudge, never taking it personally. Thank You that I have the best family ever. Thank You for how much my husband has been willing to step up and help out with the kids as my work life gets busier and busier. Thank You for the Blissful Birthing documentary and the doors flying open to make that happen. Thank You for whispering those sweet words in my soul as I nursed the baby back to sleep just now: “There’s nowhere else I need to be, nothing else I need to be doing.” What bliss! Thank You for revealing to me the fact that ADD is a sign that a person has a high calling on their life and the Enemy has therefore placed a target on their head–Attack! Distract! Dominate!

Please help me to spread that message AND to win the victory. Please show me how to claim the spiritual dominion You sacrificed so much to make possible and how to not let the Enemy win by keeping me (or anyone else) focused on things that don’t matter. Please give me wisdom regarding my to-do list. Show me where to trim the fat and cut out distractions. Please fill me with Your Holy Spirit, so that nothing else will matter at all, and make me Your avatar, Your ambassador, Your Presence here on this planet. Yes Yes Yes. THAT is what I want. Thank You!

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!

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Living Lightly Here on Earth

Good Morning, Abba. Happy Friday! You created the whole idea of cycles and weeks and time. You perfectly orchestrated everything to show us how nature works, so we can recognize the cycles and have something by which to structure our understanding of time and experience some measure of predictability. You are the master of all chaos, the creator of black holes, the One Who knows the answers to all our mysteries. You are the Ancient One. You existed before any of this was ever here, and You’ll be here long after it’s all gone. You are forever. Unchanging. Perfect. Complete.

I confess that I am a tiny little human with grand ideas of my own importance. I confess that I know almost nothing about the universe and yet I take myself and my insignificant little life very seriously. I have set myself upon the throne of my life, and I expect everyone else to pay me the respect that’s really only due to You. I think much of my circumstances and spend so much time and energy trying to manipulate them. I confess that I am a completely derelict, irresponsible and undisciplined ambassador of Your Kingdom, failing miserably at my job.

Thank You for Your forgiveness. Thank You that You are working in me both to will and to do. Thank You that You’ve promised to make good on my life, to turn it into something beautiful. Thank You for second chances unnumbered. Thank You for the freedom we experience in this country. Thank You for my beautiful children and their health. Thank You for Ben’s new school. Thank You for our new life and routine. Thank You that You will guide me to understand exactly which projects are worthy of my time and attention and will bring me a spiritual director.

Please bring that spiritual director this week. Please bring me an older, wiser person who will be honest and speak into my life and hold me accountable and expect much of me spiritually. Please help me to see the absolute best in people and not judge or criticize the ones you send into my life. Please help me to take my current perspective into my day, and to continue to take my projects very lightly, and to put all the weight on Your goals of glory. Please bless this evening’s party and give us the strength to cover it spiritually so that the Opposition is defeated. Please shape us into a cohesive, spiritually disciplined band of believers who make a difference in the history of mankind.

In Jesus’ beautiful name I pray, amen!

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