... of countless ways in which
Our Creator constantly romances us.
Abba, You are always supremely gentle and kind, even when I have been foolish and deceived and disobedient and hateful. You just keep on offering your peaceable unconditional love and warmth. You cause the sun to shine on the obedient and the disobedient, just because it’s Who You are. You are benevolent and nonjudgmental, You Who have more right and ability to judge than any other. You never hold my wrongs against me. You continue to offer love and healing and support no matter what we do. You are pure love.
I confess that I have been hateful and disobedient. Even worse, I confess that I was a terrible witness for You. I repaid malice for malice, to one Who doesn’t know Jesus. She calls herself a Christian, but she has mostly rejected Your Son and only acknowledges You. Since I’m the one who goes to church every week, I MUST be the one to show what Your love looks like in the face of mistreatment. I confess I cannot do that on my own. I failed miserably. I acted just as foolish. I was just as deceived. Titus 3:23 says to “ALWAYS be gentle toward EVERYONE, for we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating each other.” I confess my disobedience.
THANK YOU that you are faithful and just, that verse 4-7 goes on to say, “But when the kindness and love of God our Savior toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior, that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.” Thank You for this verse and its implications. Thank You for the Manna Room and my auntie.
I ask that You would please make this passage true of my life, that You would wash, regenerate, and renew me by pouring out Your Spirit abundantly in my life. Please show me if there’s anything I need to do or get out of the way in order to make that happen. I’m useless to go on even one more day without Your Spirit, and I can see by the bad fruit of my life that I don’t have Your Spirit, even after all these years of thinking I was following you. PLEASE please please pour Your Spirit on me now, so that I will be justified by Your grace and become an effective ambassador–an heir according to the hope of Eternal Life NOW!!!
In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!
Abba, You are so much bigger than any human drama. You have had Your name dragged through the mud millions of times. You are well-acquainted with false accusations. You manage to love people even as they are speaking filthy lies about You. You are incredible. You are amazing. You are so infinitely above and beyond.
I confess that I well up with violence and hatred in the face of false accusations. I brim with self-righteous defensiveness. I seethe and inwardly rage and wish for revenge. I want to hurt and harm. I “know” that my accuser is broken inside and incapable of understanding the truth, but I am unable to love her anyway. On my own, I can only return hate for hate. You must remove my heart of stone and give me Your heart in its place.
Thank You that with You anything is possible. Thank You for this opportunity to grow, to have my heart exponentially expanded by the experience. Thank You for the chance to turn to You for something that is so much bigger than me. Thank You that You can and will–and already HAVE–overcome this and all other problems of the human condition. Thank You for Gramma and her generosity. Thank You for my beautiful children. Thank You for my supportive husband. Thank You for the grace to get through this time. To THRIVE through this time. Thank You that this too shall pass. Eventually we will be in our own home, and then in Heaven with You, leaving all our human suffering behind for good.
Please give me extra grace today. Soften my heart. Give me Your perspective on the situation. Help me to breathe and not jump into reaction mode. Help me to set a great example for my kids. Please guide my actions, my words, my thoughts, and my entire life. Show me how to crawl up into Your lap and let You take over. And show me where I need to grab the wheel or pick up a hammer and build. Help me to remember that I am an ambassador of Your Kingdom, and it is my job to display unconditional love in the face of any mistreatment. Show me how to do that!!! Help me to trust You and place my hope and comfort in You in the midst of battle and attack.
You are amazing. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!