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New Year, New Yearnings

Abba, You are the Source of all emotion, all energy, all movement, all life. You are the truth behind this whole story, the beginning of it all and the end we’re heading towards. You flood our lives with unbelievable blessings every day, whether or not we take the time to stop and notice or ever express thanks for them. You are the breath we breathe, the pulse in our veins, the glue holding every cell of our bodies together. And You love us fiercely, outrageously, completely. Just the way we are. You hold no grudges, forgive all offenses, and offer only love in return.

I confess that I have been living in a dream, taking this life too seriously, distracted by the 10,000 things again. I have let so many opportunities go wasted, so many of your children pass me by unnoticed. I haven’t spread your love as I could have, haven’t spent the time in prayer and meditation to keep myself focused on all that truly matters.

Thank You for reminding me of this truth. Thank You for calling to me. Thank You for giving me the vision of Heidi Baker, with Los Angeles as my Mozambique, during worship at Mosaic on New Year’s Eve. That is way too big of a purpose for me and yet if that’s what You want for me, I know You will bring it to pass. Thank You that You’ve promised to work in me both to will and to do Your calling and Your good pleasure.  Thank You for this new year and the air of hope and freshness and love. Thank you for community and friendship and praying friends. Thank you for my growing, strengthening tribe of girlfriends.

Please cause me to want You more, to listen to You more, to worship You more. Please arrange my schedule to make time for You above all else. Please clarify my goals and my projects to weed out the distractions and the time-wasters to make me available for YOUR work and for just basking in Your Presence. Thank You for all You’ve done already, and I commit this day, this week, this month, this year, this life, to You. Do with it as You will. I am Your little handmaid acceptance-with-joy.

In Jesus’ truly precious name I pray, amen.

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Praise Report: Marriage

Praise Report: Almost exactly a month ago, I prayed for help with my marriage and my frustration with the way my husband was talking to me (read the full post/prayer here). Over the course of the past month, he has started to get more and more disciplined about meditating, and now it’s a major focus of his life. As a result, he is so much gentler and more intentional and loving with me and the kids. This weekend when we talked about our main goals, he said his is to become impeccable with his word, and to pass that on to the kids. He said he wants to be so aware of his words as he speaks to the kids, of how he’s talking and what he’s saying. As he talked, I marveled–there is no way any woman could ever bring about that change in her husband, but look what PRAYER can do!! 🙂

Abba,

You are amazing. Your power is so mysterious, so unfathomable, so unmatchable. Major revolution is effortless to You. You speak to the heart of man and make changes that human effort could never attain. You are faithful and kind and fast-acting. You are generous and thoughtful, and You desire our life success and reconciliation even more than we do. There is nothing You cannot do.

I confess that I’ve been overeating and using food for comfort instead of coming to you, and it shows. Then I get distracted from worshiping You and living full-out for You by the thoughts about my body and feeling unattractive. I’ve allowed food and body image to take the throne in my heart. And I’ve been so neglectful in my calling as a praying wife–my amazing husband has been suffering from unemployment and all the depression that comes with that for so many years now, and I’ve pretty much stopped praying about it. Horrors!! I’m so ashamed now that I think of it, but I give that shame to you.

THANK YOU for bringing this to my attention, and that You have been working behind the scenes the whole time anyway. Thank You that You have the perfect job/work situation/business already lined up for my husband, and that You will bring it to pass when the time is just right. Thank You for how wise he is and for his renewed love for meditation and commitment to becoming a man of pure speech. Thank You for how powerful that will be for our family! Thank You for our friends and community, and for the great times over this past week. Thank You for reminding me of Real Moments, and for our sweet baby and that we still get a little time to enjoy him before he’s a full-out toddler. Thank You for the changes you’re working in my heart towards our adorable daughter, and for the Real Moments there.

Please continue to transform my heart toward her. And please help us all to learn to be pure in speech. Remove the ick from our habitual speech patterns. Teach us to have reverence in our speech and to have a balance of holiness and playfulness. Please give me wisdom and discernment regarding work and to-do’s and which are the truly important. Show me how to be Mary today and sit at your feet until it’s time to rise and do Your work. And please please please give us wisdom and discernment and unity regarding our new income (thank You for welfare and its strange new reality in our lives!) and how best to channel it. Thank You! Thank You that I don’t have to worry about it or try to make us be smart with our money. I can trust you!!!

In Jesus’ name I pray, amen.

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