... of countless ways in which
Our Creator constantly romances us.
You are eternal sunshine. You are magic. You are real. You are logical. You are sometimes very illogical. You created everything. You ARE love. You are so much bigger than the God of religion, even Christianity. You are un-understandable. You are outrageous. You are beyond “Beyond.” You are the great Mystery. To You there ARE no mysteries. You. Are. And You are mine. You are the lover of my soul, the breath of my life, the beat of my heart.
I confess that I still forget You for most of the day, and instead spend that time and energy managing my image, trying to be liked, and trying to provide for myself and my kids. Playing You. And I confess that I’m still so ungrateful for so many things, and I take Life itself for granted most days. I confess that I still let fear win the battle, and I don’t stand up to it and own my power as a prayer warrior. I confess that I lose more battles than I win, because I’m not even in the game. I’m distracted and caught up in the drama of the seen.
Thank You for Lucian’s birthday party tonight, and that we’re invited to Carrie’s house after all this time. We must be vibrating at a much higher frequency to be attracting her again. Thank You for my fantastic conversation with Charles last night as he waited for his bus. Thank You for love and friendship and conversation. Thank You thank You thank You for the Manna Room. Thank You for the angel Eddie who invited me there, but whom I’ve never seen again. Thank You that my children are happy and healthy and WITH ME, and that my marriage is protected by Your grace. Thank You that I have absolutely everything I need.
Please guide my priorities today. Give me wisdom as to what to do first, how to fit in creative projects like writing the “For Richer or Poorer” monologue/blog. Please create a community of prayer warriors around us, and fill me with Your Holy Spirit so that I can boldly lead that movement if no one else is. Please grant us favor and doors wide open as we move in that direction.
Oh, I just had an Idea: throw a Prayer + Potluck Party at Linda Evans’ home.
Family-friendly. Anyone is welcome. We’ll break off in groups and cover the entire party (including food issues), our families, churches, city, nation, worldwide body of Christ, planet, and universe in prayer. We’ll open with worship. Maybe a hymn-sing. We’ll put out a blessing jar to collect any funds people feel led to share in order to bless Steve + Linda for sharing their home.
We can also do this same party at OUR home, and set up the garage as the prayer room. No blessing jar needed, because we’re “hooked up.” 😉
The more I think about it, I really really REALLY want to make it to at least the prayer part of Sam & Amy’s family small group on Sunday. I don’t want to miss an opportunity to pray with other believers! However, there’s the issue of childcare. $15 is just too much for our family right now, and I don’t even know if baby Freedom would be happy. Maybe just I could go, and leave the kids at home with Ian? No, that would be too weird. Hmmmm. Okay, maybe I’ll sit this one out for now, and work out my own prayer party as discussed above, but one that is FREE and operates on a rotating childcare/prayer system. THANK YOU, Abba!!!! Love love love it.
Oh em gee. One last thing before I go–I just realized we need to set out a PRAYER JAR–of COURSE!!!–that’s what people write their prayer requests on during the party. Then we distribute those during prayer time, so each gets covered during the party AND during the week afterward. It can even include contact info IF you desire a follow-up. Oh my sweet Jesus, thank You so much for this precious and beautiful idea. I can’t wait to experience this in person!!! 🙂
I love You love You love You! In Jesus’ all-powerful name I pray, amen!
Abba (Who I understand You to be in my very limited understanding at this time),
You are the Creator of absolutely everything–all beauty, comedy, nature, magic, love, romance, adventure… You are the animating force behind all life. You are the Lover of my soul, the One Who is always calling to me, always wooing me, always romancing me and waiting for me to notice, to receive, to appreciate the amazing gifts you prepare for me in each and every moment.
I confess that I have missed 99.9% of what You’ve done for me, and that I forget you exist most of the time. I take You for granted. I get caught up in the most ridiculous meaninglessness. I worry about the details instead of trusting you and giving you my sincere requests.
THANK YOU that You forgive me before I even ask You to, that You hold nothing against me, that You shine Your sun on me whether I notice or not, that You are constant and steady and true and faithful and completely independent of anything I do or don’t do. Thank You for this miraculous beautiful life growing inside my belly. Thank You for the extraordinary children You’ve already blessed us with, for how healthy and sweet and honest and truly good they are. Thank You for wisdom and guidance, for this job opportunity with Emancipated Foster Youth at Olive Crest, for the very real possibility that we will be in an apartment home of our own very soon. Thank You for the rain and Christmas season. Thank You for the absolute abundance of Christmas parties and events we’ve been a part of this year, for the community of loved ones surrounding us, and for the hope of our very own Christmas miracle. Thank You for the gift of writing, for Mommy’s Secret Smile, the Bathwater Revival, the SAHMbie movement, and the 12 steps to true change. Thank You for love. Thank You for Ian and that I still like him after almost 12 years and all that we’ve been through. Thank You for movies and the film industry and that we live in California.
My specific requests today include clear guidance about the move to Orange County, and a big THANK YOU for whatever home you have prepared for us for this next year. I also ask You for wisdom and assistance with parenting, so that Ben can be guided into being all he can be, and Elsie can be encouraged to have a more proactive, positive attitude and consistently sweet spirit. May they find inspiration and purpose in their everyday routines and responsibilities. May we bring You glory and love all Your children well. May we fall asleep this evening with a clear conscience and grateful hearts exhausted by the giving and fully living.
Amen! And so it is. 😉
p.s. Thank You for the Prayer Jar being back in my life!