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The Gift of Depression

Abba, You are. You are absolutely amazing. You are the reason for all of this. You are the brilliant creator and inventor of every natural thing. You came up with the very idea of life. You breathed existence into being. You can end everything in one millisecond. You. You. You. You are outrageously powerful, and here with me every second of my day. There’s nothing I need to hide from You, even if I could, because You get me. You get why we have wayward thoughts and feelings. You can heal them and set them straight in a moment, as soon as we turn to You.

I confess that I allow depression to make more of an impression that it really needs to. I resist the thoughts that lead to my feeling defeated, instead of just laying them at Your feet. I confess that I’ve built patterns and habits that lead to that defeated feeling, when You have called me to live in vibrant victory. I confess that I have not been thriving, but allowing the one who came to steal, kill, and destroy to have his way with my life.

THANK YOU for the gift of depression. Thank You that it leads me into deep rest for my soul. Thank You for Your healing power. Thank You for the internet and electricity and our laptop, and for the ability to reach out to the world and communicate, to share my heart and soul with the global family. Thank You for the real-life friendship circle that is building around me. Thank You for the mending of our relationship after the fight with Gramma. Thank You for miracles.

Please guide today to make it all it can be. Redeem these hours. Lead us into Your presence and set our feet firmly on the paths You would have us walk. Please keep the children strong and healthy as we head into the thickest part of Halloween week. Please give us wisdom and inspiration and guide us in our creation of the Discipline Junkies project, and my work on the marriage journey for the Mommy Launch Pad. Please give us the knowledge of how best to use the disciplines to position ourselves at your feet so that we can receive You and Your goodness. THANK YOU!!!!

In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!

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O Life, Where Is Your Victory?

Good morning, Abba. I come before Your throne in worship, for You are Almighty God. The beginning and the end. You are the reason for all of this. The source. The original. The inventor. Creator. Artist. Explorer. Author. Healer. Patient leader. Tenderhearted father. Loving shepherd. Fierce warrior. Protector. Defender. Redeemer. And ultimately you will set all wrongs right and make everything beyond worth it.

I confess that I pretty much lived another day only for myself. I just get so caught up in the sensual pleasures of life, the business, the lure of the outer and the attempts to reach worldly success. Then I switch over to self-loathing and the opposite end of the not-focused-on-You spectrum. O Life, where is Your victory? My flesh is so weak to do what You would have me do, and so strong to lead me astray and distract me. I confess I have not disciplined my flesh and my mind to stay focused on You and things above.

Thank You that Your mercies are new every morning. Thank You for the high calling on my life. Thank You for the power of prayer. Thank You for the people You have given me, who are just waiting for me to step up to my position of power and create the space for them to learn about the disciplines and join together in a community of believers who are taking the disciplines seriously without getting cultish. Thank You that we do have internet access much of the time, and that the finances to provide that consistently are on the way. Thank You that we are well-fed and cared for and that our own home will be here soon. Thank You that I get along so well with my husband most of the time. I know that is pure miracle. Thank You for our health and our magical family.

Please guide us today. Keep us close to You and don’t let us stray too far. Help us to actually do what needs to be done to experience Your sweet victory!! Teach us what our part is exactly. Send us Your Holy Spirit to instruct us and comfort us. Open our eyes to actually SEE You as You said we would! Or, if that’s a misunderstanding of the scripture, please open our minds to understand that, so we aren’t left feeling defeated. Bring us community that is committed to You and living for You, so that we can build each other up and reach victory together. Bring hymns to our mind throughout the day, to keep our hearts on You and Your heavenly reality. Make this day a day to remember forever. A day of victory for Your Kingdom.

In Jesus’ name I pray, and so it is! Amen!

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